This world just isn't the same anymore and I don't know how to go on without you. I find myself getting angry with people, with friends and family that I love. All because they have found a way to move on. I feel like I'm the only one still sad from missing you. With one more day I could take all this anger and throw it away. I would tell you many many times how much I love you and how you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. How all my life I have dreamed of you. I would hold you and kiss you. I would close my eyes and smell you all around me. I would listen for your laugh that brightened every moment of my day. All of this would do me good if God gave me one more day!
I found this poem and It touched me. I wanted to share it so that everyone could tell their loved ones how they feel cause at some point tomorrow will not come.
If I knew it would be the last time that Id see you fall asleep. Id tuck you in more tightly and pray the lord your soul to keep. If I knew it would be the last time that Id see you walk out the door, I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more. If I knew it would be the last time Id hear your voice lifted up in praise, I would video tape each action and word and play it back day after day. If I knew it would be the last time I could spare and extra minute or two to say I love you, instead of assuming you would know I do. If I knew it would be the last time I would share your day, well Im sure you'll have so many more so ill just let this one slip away. For surely there is always tomorrow to make up for an over sight and we always get a second chance to make everything right. There will always be another day to say our I love you's and certainly theres another chance to say our anything I can do's. But just in case I might be wrong and today is all I get I would like to say how much I love you and hope we never forget. Tomorrow is not promised to anyone young or old alike and today maybe the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight. So if you're waiting for tomorrow why not do it today? For if tomorrow never comes you'll surely regret the day, that you didn't take that extra time for a smile a hug or a kiss and you were too busy to grant someone what turned out to be their one last wish. So hold your loved ones close today and whisper in their ear. Tell them how much you love them and that you'll always hold them dear. Take the time to say I'm sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you, or Its okay. And if tomorrow never comes you'll have no regrets about today
I pray that God forgives me for all the anger I have held against him. For months and months I have been angry with him and yelled at him. For months I have cursed at him and blamed him. I know you are with him now and I know you are in good hands. I cant make excuses but I can say I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all the angry and hatred I gave to God because I was jealous you are with him now and not with me. All this time I was angry at him I should have been confiding in him. Trusting that he would take care of you. Knowing that you are not alone. I didn't know that loving you could hurt so much, but I wouldn't change a thing because I love you just the same.
If only God gave me One More Day....
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