Time brings Changes

Things for our family are definitely changing again. Life has changed for us so many times, in good ways and in harder ways. Today it was a good way but it was a tough step for all to take. We shall see what the future holds for us. I talked to someone today and she said so many things to me today that has made me think. We got to talking about how everything we have been through this year with the loss of our sweet baby boy. She asked some personal questions and made me realize I haven't been answering some of my own questions. She got me talking about my doubts and my fears and then she made me realize what I still hope for in our future. What I still have hopes for with Alaina. Then she said something I will never forget. That with all the sadness we have gone through she said I deserve to move on and be happy and that I need to stop holding myself back. Until she told me I was doing holding back I never realized it. Why haven't I been made aware of this before? Was I just blind to it? No matter what goes on with our future I will always wait for the day to hold my baby boy again! I just cant lose myself in my pain to not see the joy Alaina still has to give! I love my husband, my daughter, and my son with all that I am. They are why I do what I do and why I try so hard to be a good mom and wife! I wouldn't be me without them!

OH! Also great news! We are going to Disney World! We booked our trip today! :D

This is Our Story!

So I started a blog to update our family and friends about what goes on in our lives. Its hard being so far away and being in the military we make so many great friends. By now everyone should know that Clinton and I have been happily married for over four years now and we have two beautiful children Alaina and CJ. Along with knowing who we are as a family it is also known we are going through a hard time in our life. It has been almost a year since our son CJ has passed away and there has been so many road blocks and obstacles we have had to overcome as a family. I know as long as we have each other, our friends, and our family there we will take on whatever comes our way. Not a day goes by we dont struggle to move on and we will never understand why such a sweet precious little boy could have been taken away from us. We will love and miss him every day for the rest of our lives! He is our angel.